Who Am I?

Who Am I?

I am a paradox.

I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad.

I am lazy, yet I am ambitious.

I don't like myself, but I also love who I am.

I say I don't care, but really I do.

I crave attention, but detest it when it comes my way.

I am a conflicted contradiction.

I think about love, but then I think its not worth it.

I want to befriend you, but I don't trust you with all my heart.

I want to give in my all, but I doubt the outcome.

I want to touch the zenith, but I am not sure about the ground beneath.

I want to bid adieu, but I want to see you for one last time

I want to die today, but the promises of tomorrow keep me hanging on.

If I can't figure myself out, there is no way anyone else has.